The Things You Taught Me That You Weren't Aware Of

You were the one who taught me that attraction at first sight is not a myth and that attraction can last for years. I know this cos everytime we meet, I feel that same pull towards you no matter how much I tell myself that it doesn’t exist.

You were the one who taught me not to look at the world with rose-tinted glasses. Your experiences and stories of what you went through had me in stitches but they also taught me not to be naïve and sheltered simply cos I live in a safe country.

You were the one who taught me how easy it is to compartmentalize and walk away, no strings attached. The minimal actions you took broke my heart and shattered my dignity.

You were the one who taught me that I shouldn’t settle. In your own twisted way, you showed me that if it’s not right, I should walk away. The guilt I felt turned into a lesson that was worth more than a million bucks.

You were the one who taught me that it is possible to want all of someone and nothing at the same time. That new experience is a terrible feeling and I certainly hope never to feel that again.

You were the one who taught me how much I despise myself – for being hopeless and useless when it comes to you  - yet try to be that fierce independent woman.

You were the one who taught me that I was right all this while and I should have trusted my instincts right from the start.

Now that I’ve learnt, will I apply the lessons or continue letting you teach me?

 

Hugs,
Nora