Put Your Guards Up

She would have been good at it. Actually no, she IS good at it.

She would have taken care of you when you needed her.

She would have dressed up to the nines when she accompanies you to your social gatherings.

She would have made you feel like you’re the only one.

She would have loved you whole-heartedly.

But she knows better now. Now that the dust has settled, she knows that the fences have got to come up. The plastic sheet has got to be put in place.

She sees how sweet and real you are. She sees the enchanting smile that lights her up in return. She sees the twinkle in your eye when you gaze at her with such intensity.

But you confuse her. Did you want her or was it just a form of distraction?

Well, as much as she loves The Hunger Games, she’s not in a place where she can reciprocate the games that you play. Her guard is up; she’s not going to make the same mistakes yet again. Especially more so given the circumstances that she’s in now.

Every day, she resolves (with a determination like never before) to flip the off switch and put those white picket fences up. There’s no way you can hurt her then.

Every day, she slips that bit whenever she sees or talks to you.

So help her, she will bounce back. That independent streak in her will come to light. 

 Hugs,
Nora