Long Distance Relationships... Or Not

Having recently met people who share their love/life stories with me has been a mind opener.

I've met someone who met his now fiance while they were both on vacation. The guy is from US and the girl, Japan. After a couple of weeks together, they decided to embark on a long distance relationship that lasted 1.5 years. They managed to work through the distance and the cultural differences and now, they're engaged.

Know of someone else who met his current girlfriend when she was vacationing in New York. He's from Sweden and she's from Spain. Again, they only had a month together but they felt so strongly for each other that they decided to continue with a long distance relationship. Fast forward a year and he is now moving to Spain to be with her.

There are so many other stories that I can share with you but in essence, what I'm trying to say is that it amazes me to know of the lengths people will go to for love. Maybe it's not love when you decide to pursue that relationship but that you're willing to take that chance, I smile at the warmth radiating in me. Yes, I'm a sappy romantic.

If you're ever caught in a position that requires a decision of such, I'll tell you to embrace it with wide open arms. Maybe it'll work, maybe it won't. It'll definitely be painful but who's to say that it won't be the best decision you'll ever make?

Maybe you need space to think. Maybe you're confused. Maybe you're just being a jackass.
All things said and done, I care too much now to say that I don't and there's nothing I can do about it. What I can do is to stop showing that I care but you know I always will cos you're special to me. 

Hugs,
Nora

Words vs Actions

Words. They can be cutting and hurt you right where it hurts, even more so than a punch to your gut. But they can also warm you up from the inside, way more so than a hug to your teddy bear. Ok, so that was a weird analogy but best I can do at this time of the day. 

Over the past week, I've learnt that while words can mean a lot, their meaning diminishes if the actions don't back them up. 

I've also learnt that for some people, words aren't enough to express how much they truly care for you and instead, they let their actions do the work. 

I don't say this often enough but I have the best sisters. They nag, they don't truly understand where I'm coming from, who I am and all that jazz but at the end of the day, they care. It's not so much as to the words they say (in this instance, they don't), but the things they do to show me their care and love speak volume. 

Sometimes it's easy to wish that you're more alike so things will be easier. 

Sometimes it's easy to want to be what's perceived as "normal" so you don't have to permanently fight the stigma. 

But all that's said and done, you'll come to accept you're not cut from the same cloth and you'll struggle to let your loved ones accept that of you. 

Hugs, 

Nora

Effects on All Senses

She can hear his velvety voice as he speaks with his twinkly eyes.
She can taste the sweetness of his lips as he lowers his head to kiss her.
She can feel the warmth of his body as he wraps his arms around her. 
She can smell his scent as he approaches her. It's that one scent that's engraved in her mind. 
She can sense him all the time. 

That guy. That man. 
That last kiss. That last hug. That last time. 
She wants it all, one last time. 

Then she wakes up.

Hugs,
Nora

What's Wrong With Me?

In a simple question that I daresay most people ask themselves when things aren't going right - what is wrong with me?!

Pose that question to any of your friends and more often than not, they'll say that nothing is wrong with you. But hey. They're your friends and they usually tell you what you want to hear. Who, in their right minds, would tell you honestly what is wrong with you? They don't want to hurt your feelings nor do they want to belittle you.

Today, of all days, is a day full of unforeseen circumstances.

As the saying goes, it's a fucked up day.

So things may not go as well as you want to in terms of your career but that's ok. You can pick up where you left off. Things are *still within your control. It's simply a matter of getting your act together.
But when other personal things crop up and they're beyond your control, there's really nothing you can do except to suck it up... and suck it up, I will.

You're the sweetheart I had the pleasure of befriending. So yeah, you weren't perfect but your flaws made you who you are. Your honesty and decency in all things command my respect more so than you probably know. 
After a year and a half, you're the first person I developed such strong feelings for but the feelings are either not mutual or the timing is not right. 

With all that's said and done, I thank you. For letting me see that I'm not a cold-hearted bitch and for giving me the privilege of knowing a person as amazing as you are. For making me fall for you when it is what it is. 

In a strange twist of thoughts, how about a major haul of changes? Maybe plastic surgery to be skinnier, to be prettier. Or maybe a brain transplant to be smarter, funnier?
It doesn't matter really.

I'm done.

Hugs,
Nora

My Twinkly Brown-Eyed Boy

You came into my life at a time that I wish you hadn't.

Initially, I was attracted to you cos you were simply adorable. Your twinkly brown eyes, your charming smile, your playfulness. But I know now that you are so much more than that.
Your wit and smarts drew me in. Your keen hunger for knowledge about anything/everything made me want to better myself. Your love for your family knows no boundaries. Your honesty about your past and your opinions about the present/future speak volume.

And your willingness to share all that with me is astounding.

With all the failed relationships that I've gone through, I know I'm no longer the wide-eyed girl who jumps in feet first. I keep everyone at an arm's length and I don't let any guy in. No matter it be about work, family, friends or anything personal. What you'll see is the frivolous side of me and that works perfectly fine for me cos I was done with yet another failed relationship.

But you're different. I kept you at bay but the better I know you, the more I want you to be involved. I wanted you to meet my friends and my family. I wanted to tell you about my past, my plans for the future and so much more.

Somehow, you've changed that part of me.

You make me want to open up.
You make me want to hug you and never let go when you're upset or frustrated.
You make me want to take care of you.
You make me want to make you happy.
You make me care.

One day, maybe I'll ask if you'll let me borrow your heart tomorrow and all the tomorrows after that.

Hugs,
Nora

Things I Love.... And Don't

I love being enveloped in one of your big bear hugs. Actually, I love all your hugs.

I love how you held my hand that very first time as we walked down the street. It felt strong and warm in mine.

I love the way your lips taste as they touch mine. Your soft kisses ignite a fire in me... and so much more.

I absolutely love it when you kiss my forehead. It makes me feel like you care.

I love how you always put a smile on my face. Your child-like ways, that twinkle in your eyes, your wit and personality - they never fail to light up my day.

What I don't like much?
That I actually really do like you.. more so than I should.
That you confuse me.
That you send me mixed signals.

Hugs,
Nora